well mum its now14 october an soon it will be your birthday,see i aint forgot,i hope to be spending that day on the beach with you in spirit cos i no for a fact you'll be there hopefully with all your kids an grand kids aswell wishing you all the best an wishing you were here with us.i still cant get over the fact that youv gon mum,sorry but i cant grieve for you an i dont no why,i hold it back.i wish i could come to see you,but its not as if your next door is it.everything that i see in my life now makes me think of you all the time an i think im going mad but your there more so cos of your birthday an xmas an knowing that we all got told you would be around for your birthday an the things we were all gonna do.im going threw a hard time with my health aswell an i so do wish you were here to help me threw it.i love you an cant cant get to grips with loosing you.xxxxxxxxxxmissing you loads.